Thank you for sustaining me through the last three days.
I woke up on Sunday morning feeling bright and cheerful and alive. The sun was out. The garden looked great. Sure, the girls had been a bit tired Saturday night, but today was a new day and we had adventures aplenty in store.
I snuck on my tippiest of tippy toes in to greet them, thinking what a rare treat this was – normally by now they’d have been in to wake me and I’d have read them at least two stories.
So I sneak through the open door and find two little girls lying in bed. One is asleep and looks very pale under a rosy flush on her face. The other is bundled firmly up in her doona shivering and sweating and pale.
“Auntie Alciana, I feel sick.” I feel her skin with the back of my hand.
“Yep,” I nod, “I think you feel sick too. Think you can stand a glass of water to start with?”
On the other side of the room seven-year-old Jazz groans and calls out in a teary voice, “Auntie Alciana, I feel sick.”
“You too, huh? How about I get you some water too and then I might ring your Dad and see what he wants me to do with two sick chicks?”
Both nod miserably.
When I finally get to ring Paul he sounds awful.
“Alci? Is that you? That’s good, I was just about to ring you. Do you think you could keep the girls for a few days – Mum could help a bit before and after school while you’re at work …”
“Paul, the girls …”
“… I’m really worried about what else to do with them until I’m sure I’m not contagious anymore …”
“Paul, …. the girls are … ”
” … I swear, I was so off last night – but Alci – I’ve got Chicken Pox.”
Chicken Pox … Lord, why Chicken Pox?
“Fan-tas-tic!” Paul misreads my sarcasm.
“Yeah, I know. Bummer, hey. So, what do you say? I know its not ideal with work and your own health and all, but…”
“I say that I’m taking Emily & Jazz to the doctor to confirm that they probably have Chicken Pox too, and then I’m packing a bag and coming out to look after you all while you’re still off colour. I’ll go home when you’re just spotty and not sick.”
“They’re sick. Both of them. Burning up like little steam engines. Like when I had it when I was sixteen. Paul, I’d say you, Emily and Jasmine all have Chicken Pox.”
Then Paul said a word that I’m not writing in my journal.
By lunchtime there were spots on their tummies.
Paul and I decided doctors could wait til Monday, so I picked up calamine lotion and stuff to put in the bath that everybody was glad of.
I cooked dinner to the disinterest of all but myself and the dog.
Monday came and I called work to arrange time off to care for family – no problems.
Next on the agenda saw me driving all three miserable specimens into the doctor’s surgery. One, two, three spotty persons along the wall. Everyone coming in (or already there) took one look and made for the other side of the room.
“Give me a bell and I’ll walk around yelling ‘unclean! unclean!” Paul mumbled out of the side of his mouth.
I giggled. And then thought.
“Where did you pick that up?” I asked.
He shrugged. “I’ve been reading bits of the Bible now and then – though it’s hard to make sense of some of it. A guy at work who explains some bits to me if I ask him said some people had to do that if they had diseases and stuff that were considered ceremonially unclean by the Jews”
Lord, Paul’s been reading your word and has been talking to another believer about you. I never give you enough credit for what you without me … I always seem to think that my family getting to know you depends upon me – but it’s really all you, isn’t it? Help me keep my role in perspective. This is not my job, but yours.
Medical certificates for school and Paul’s work fixed up … although Jazz was reluctant to part with hers until she at length grasped the fact that it was not an achievement award. (for getting the chicken pox????) We assured her that we would be keeping a copy anyway. She has already shown her certificate (still seen as one of merit) to the school office ladies, the groundsman, the pharmacy assistant, old Mrs Hargraves, Bennie – who was at the pharmacy and to the post man (she waited for him … I think she has cabin fever already).
Lord, after two days of chasing my tail I am so dizzy that I am seeing spots. No. Actually. The spots are real. They are still there.
So are the grumbles.
The normally good-humoured Johns family of the brother Paul are scratchy. Scratchy of mood and finger.
I resorted in a moment of impulsive frustration today to taping Jasmine into oven mitts today. They were handy and I couldn’t stop her from scratching.
Poor kiddie. She looked a bit like an American basketball fan with those big foam things on.
Emily, seeing what I’d done to Jazzy when she couldn’t leave the spots alone went upstairs for a while – and just as I was about to go looking for her – down the stairs she came in a balaclava with socks on her hands.
I looked at her.
She looked at Jazz’s hands, then held up her own and shrugged.
I’d have loved to have seen the expression on her face.
Paul – Paul just scratches when he thinks the girls aren’t looking; looks at me and says, “what? I can’t help it … Don’t you even think about it!”
Never brother dear. You may bear your scars manfully.
But I noticed him letting the girls talk him into putting socks on his hands.
Gave me a filthy look over their heads as he melted.
Thinking about scratching makes me think of the way James talks about temptation in chapter one. First there’s the itch. Nobody makes you scratch it. But the desire is there. You scratch when your desire to do so is enticed by the itch and you make the choice to – (and make chicken pock scars?)… and then it’s harder and harder to stop.
Lord through James you make it clear that a Christian is to be steadfast and reaching for the ultimate prize of eternal life. Please help me to resist temptation. May you strengthen me so that I may not allow sinful desire to be enticed, but that you will replace sinful desires with good and perfect ones from you. Father please protect me from habitually ignoring sin and discounting it, but make me long for your truth and the way that you have set forth in your word as wise and righteous and godly. Forgive me for the times when I want to or try to lay responsibility for my sin at your feet – for you are a good God, holy and righteous, perfect and just and have been for all time. You are unchanging.
Father thank you for choosing to grant me new life through the gospel and a place in eternity.